deaths. Meaning in their life until they die in an event without meaning. All happens for a reason it is said. Rack our thoughts to find a why. Make sense of brokenness. Connect dots, complete cryptic clues, research and solve a nag of questions, to find yet more questions and distance is an enemy. We must bring it all closer than we can cope, see into its eyes, smell its breath and animal warmth and yet still be bemused. Attracted to those who are confident we pray they have a clue.